These "cloudy" days come at such unexpected times - usually the most inopportune time, if you ask me. Yesterday was one of those days for me. I had this overwhelming feeling of dread, like there was a dark cloud following me around. All day I tried to figure it out, but was so busy getting things done to get the kids in school today that I couldn't really stop and try to figure it out. Last night, my husband and I took a long walk and we talked about it. He said "Just be still and rest tomorrow - slow down and just try to get alone, you will figure it out."
This morning, I decided it was time. So I prayed, opened my Bible and began my search for answers. I don't want another day like yesterday! I read my daily Bible reading and came across this verse in Psalm 105:39 "The Lord spread a cloud above them as a covering and gave them a great fire to light the darkness." He was talking about the Israelites during their Exodus out of Egypt. I like the thought that God "covered" them with this cloud - it almost seemed protective, not scary at all. I thought that was very interesting, so I decided to look up on Bible Gateway (http://www.biblegateway.com/) all the instances where the word "cloud" was mentioned.
The word cloud is mentioned 153 times in the Bible and the vast majority of those times, it was mentioned as describing God's presence. Interesting. When God's presence was in the form of a thick cloud at the Tabernacle, the Israelites camped out and didn't move. Once the cloud would lift, they would pack up camp and move on.
Numbers 9:20-22 says this: Sometimes the cloud was over the tabernacle only a few days; at the LORD's command they would encamp, and then at his command they would set out. Sometimes the cloud stayed only from evening till morning, and when it lifted in the morning, they set out. Whether by day or by night, whenever the cloud lifted, they set out. Whether the cloud stayed over the tabernacle for two days or a month or a year, the Israelites would remain in camp and not set out; but when it lifted, they would set out.
The Israelites were commanded by God to be still when the cloud was present. This is not lost on me at all. I think my husband was absolutely right. God may be trying to get my attention with this heavy, dark cloud He has allowed to come over me. I need to camp out, slow down and seek Him with everything in me until the cloud lifts.
How cool is the Word of God to show me this today, of all days?! I mean, that just blows my mind on so many levels. I can't say the cloud has completely lifted as of yet, but I can certainly say with confidence that I have met with the Creator of the Universe in my dark, cloudy day and He has shown me great fire to light the darkness! When He blacked out the rest of the world, He slowed me down so I could focus on His promises and He has shown me Light in this darkness that I would not have seen had I not experienced it. If you have a cloud hovering over you today, seek Him. He is in the cloud and He is waiting to meet with you. The cloud could just be His blessed invitation to meet one on one with Him! What a privilege!
'For this is what the Sovereign LORD says: I myself will search for my sheep and look after them. As a shepherd looks after his scattered flock when he is with them, so will I look after my sheep. I will rescue them from all the places where they were scattered on a day of clouds and darkness. Ezekiel 34:11-12