I'm sort of an enigma I suppose. I love deep thoughts - love to be challenged by scripture and the meaning of life. But I'm also a big goofball and I enjoy a good laugh sometimes. Like today - I cannot stop laughing at myself. I'm wearing a shirt that is reminiscent of the "pirate shirt" from Seinfeld. "But I don't want to be a pirate!" keeps going through my head. Every time I look at it I giggle and remember that ridiculous show about nothing that set the standard for sitcoms for years to come.
Also - I love Christian music and even worked in Christian radio for a long time. But I also like Pink Floyd and listened to "The Wall" the other day while I folded laundry and ironed. I actually gained a lot of insight into Mr. Floyd. He was an interesting character. My I-pod must be confused - I have bands like Metallica, Guns n Roses, Linkin Park and Journey but then I also have Hillsong, Phil Wickham, John Denver and Sigur Ros. I have no idea what music I like best - it depends on my mood. But just because I'm a Jesus follower doesn't mean I only listen to the Bill Gaither Trio. You won't even find them on my I-Pod.
I like to put on comfortable clothes the minute I get home from work. I enjoy dressing up but if I were honest, I'd rather sit criss-cross applesauce on a couch with a cup of coffee and get real with a friend. No pretense. Hate it. I just want the truth - reality - no masks. I hate masks.
I want you to feel welcome here at my blog, whether you are a strong believer in Christ or someone who is searching and not sure about Him. I want you to know that I love you, no matter what you believe and I want you to feel like you can be yourself with me. Because you can. I want you to know that even though I have some deep thoughts about my beliefs, I'm pretty insecure. I mean, I'll be honest - sometimes when I don't get a "like" on facebook I question myself. Was it too much? Not enough? What if I got it wrong? I'm human - go figure.
Sometimes I feel like I'm too heavy (not physically, though that is in question at this point in my life, too, but I digress...) with my thoughts - like Jack Handy from Saturday Night Live, only usually I have a point and it's not random. I said usually. And then other times I think I'm not heavy enough - I mean, if we really realized how important our belief in God is in the world, we'd all be a lot heavier in our thoughts.
I guess what I'm saying is don't put me in a box. Don't try to define me and think that's who I am. I will either let you down or surprise you. I think we are all like that - multi-faceted. We are all enigmas in our own little ways. I like that. I don't think it's good to be one-dimensional. I like that about you, too. I hope I never put you in a box - and if I do, I hope you claw your way out and prove me wrong.
Our lives are rich and beautiful - no matter who we are. We are made in the image of God. We were made to love, to seek and to find. And even if we do it in a puffy pirate shirt while listening to Pink Floyd and ironing, I think we're pretty amazing.