In a correspondence with one of my friends last week I wrote "I'm squinting to see the Lord right now - please pray for me." Have you ever had times like that? It's like a drought of sorts.
finding as I mature in my faith that these times of drought do come,
but that they are often followed up with some very sweet times of
refreshment with the Lord. I'm learning to wait with more
patience during my drought because God has been faithful every time to
end it eventually. I get a little antsy sometimes though, honestly!
Well, this morning in my quiet time I feel I finally got some
relief. It was as if the drought ended in my spirit!
The part I couldn't get past was "...they could no longer see Him. As they strained to see Him..."
It just kept leaping off the page, directly into my heart. It was
exactly how I have been feeling over the past couple of weeks. I
couldn't see the Lord in my life and I was straining to see Him. It was
almost exactly what I had written to my friend!
My first reaction was "Wow, I'm not the only one!" and then I
began to wonder why they couldn't see Him and what it was that was in
the way that made it so hard for them to keep their eyes on Him.
Backing up to the beginning of verse 9, it said He was taken up into a
cloud. The clouds were in the way of their view of Him. I thought
those clouds could represent the sickness, lethargy, monotony and
frustration I've felt over the past couple of weeks. But just because
the clouds were there, did that mean Jesus wasn't? No. It just meant
they were in the way, deterring their view of Him. That's when their
faith had to kick in. That's when my faith needed to kick in!
So today, I'm not squinting to see Him in my life and I'm not straining
to see Him either. I'm just trusting that He is there, no matter what
clouds my view of Him in life. He said "I will never leave you, I will never forsake you." When Jesus says it, He means it. He doesn't lie. So, what will my response be? Do I believe Him or not?
Yes, the drought is over for now. I'm feeling times of refreshment in
my spirit again! I'm so grateful for times like this. I think I need
to remember to be thankful for times of drought, too, though because
those are the times when I can really build my faith muscles by learning
to trust Him, even when the cloudy situations of life are in the way of
James 1:2-4 Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles come
your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. For you know that
when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. So let
it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be perfect
and complete, needing nothing.